Time to Come Clean :(

You're probably all wondering why I visit this site so infrequently. You're probably wondering why I always upload at strange times, and why I'm so late to respond to most messages. You're probably wondering why I'm so crazy!?!... Well... it's about time you know the whole truth.

Some of you may have already worked this out, but I am a student. Not a school student, but a university student. You may be surprised to know that I am not studying anything to do with arts or entertainment. The course I am working on is business related, and it is too complex for me to mention in detail, at the risk of boring some of you to death! I am currently in my final year of the course; I have recently started the second semester, and I am awaiting the results for the first one. I don't have a lot of free time.

At this stage in my life, art is just a hobby, and not one I have much time for: when I'm not working, I'm travelling; when I'm not travelling, I'm relieving stress, and drawing is not enough to allow me to relieve stress (I need films and games for that). Occasionally, I sleep. I need to make time for the little artwork that I do create, and it is very difficult. I only do it to please you guys, not myself. I realise... that there are only a few people who are genuinely interested in my art... and, thank you! It's nice to have been able to please someone...

Operating this channel is stressful, on top of the insane amount of stress I put up with on my course. To be perfectly honest, visiting this "channel" usually makes me feel sort of depressed: I feel like I have failed to make an impact upon the DA community, and that I will always be ignored. I try to ensure that I upload here at least once a month, but I try to avoid visiting this channel whenever I can. It's not because of you guys, it's because of my failed attempts at pleasing you.

I also regret some of the promises I have made to people in the past, such as the demo & trailer for my game "White Labyrinth", which was supposed to release this winter, but is currently on hiatus. I foolishly made this promises when I finished my exams for the first semester, and thought I would have enough time to work on them during the break. The break was only one week though, and I encountered a huge amount of technical issues, causing delay. I have failed. I'd like to apoligise for my deluded ambitions.

I'd also like to apologise to all the people who I never responded to over the years, or never thanked for favouriting my stuff. I appreciate your contributions, but I had too little time to thank you for them. So now I'd like to say a big: "THANK YOU!".

So, what are my current plans? I'm still going to share my art here, and occasionally comment, but not very often. When my course is over and done with, I may have some time to spare before looking for a job, but probably not a huge amount of time (expect more regular visits than right now at least). At some point this year, I hope to at least release the demo for White Labyrinth, but I can't make promises. I'd also like to publish my first book "The Bear that Blinked" this year, but once again, I can'r promise anything. If I do manage these, I will let you know of course.

Tomorrow's my birthday, but I don't reckon I'll be doing anything exciting: just the usual 9:00-5:00 + travelling. But don't let that stop you from having fun. Work hard, but don't stress yourselves. Take a break now and then, while you can... Be ambitious. Don't be deluded.

(If you actually read all of that, then you are practically a saint. Thank you!)